I thank you for all the comments and e-mails sending hugs and wishing me well.
I am really touched that (some of) you actually really care and please do not worry,
I do not have cancer / tumour!
My condition is called hives and just to make you understand
how painful it is and how really ugly it looks,
these were taken half an hour ago.
I have been getting this every night and everyday
for the past six weeks, by the way.
right arm
left arm
thighs
And those are only on areas I can capture and share here.
I am not in my right body, given I'm not in my right mind too,
I'd have shared photos of how the hives look on my face (yes, my eyes and my lips),
at the flesh of my buns and at the meat of boobs!
Believe me,
they are more painful than they look
and they are so itchy the pain feels like blaring fire!
They usually make their appearance from 6 in the evening until I don't know whact time at night because I'd usually be knocked out from two tablets of Benadryl (they don't sell this in Malaysia, I don't know why) I have to take as soon as I'm back home from dinner. On my unlucky days, they'd still be there conquering more surface of my body and if that happens, I'd just have to call it literally a day, at home.
The very last time I suffered from them (before six weeks from today) was almost 10 years ago. Without selling lips service, I swear YOGA played a big part in making them stop haunting my life because I started yoga more than 9 years ago. Alhamdulillah, my hives, my allergy to shellfish and most importantly my asthma, disappeared 6 months after regular practice of yoga starting year 2000.
Some doctors say, hives or allergic reaction come and go in ones life without warnings and goodbyes. They can stay in your body for 2 years and come again 20 years later or visit you for 6 weeks and disturb you again 16 months later.
From Wikipedia, 'hives are frequently caused by allergic reactions, however there are many non-allergic causes. For example, most cases of hives lasting less than six weeks (acute urticaria) are the result of an allergic trigger. Chronic urticaria (hives lasting longer than six weeks) are rarely due to an allergy. The majority of patients with chronic hives have an unknown (idiopathic) cause.'
Since the attack of the hives is very vicious this time around (they appear every night for the past six weeks and their sizes grow bigger this week in particular), I have even gone fully vegetarian for most days of the week.
In case you don't know, I refuse to wear the 'label' vegetarian
because although I gave up meat and chicken 16 months ago
but I still consume eggs, milk and certain seafood for survival.
So since shellfish, eggs and milk are now avoided altogether,
I thought I have eliminated all risk factors and potential allergy
but the hives keep appearing and even more aggresive than when I still consume eggs / milk / seafood!
So thank you yogi Azmi and yogini Lila that pointed,
that's my body's way to show that I have been under unbearable stress.
Flashes of episode of Nip/Tuck Season 1 or 2 where Julia broke out of smiliar rashes
when she was too nervous keeping the secret that Matt is not Sean's,
immediately came to me!
I am not exactly proud to have shared those unsightly pictures and evidence but I still do,
just something for me to know and to not continue living in denial
that I AM NOT STRESSED!
I still have no idea what is it in particular I am stressed about so I am in process of:
1. Eliminating my time spent on worrying things that won't get better unless big money falls from my sky tomorrow, and
2. Reducing time spent with people with really bad energy and with perpetual negative thinking (I wonder why some people hate everything in life and all the other people so much? What have the world done to you to make you this spiteful and if you are not doing the changes to better yourself, don't start trying to stop others that do! Oh yes, I might mean this bracketed line to a certain someone. I know you are reading.)
In the literally mean time,
I endure.
It might be true what they say,
'sakit itu penghapus dosa.'
50 comments:
Vegetarians do consume eggs, milk and by-products from animals...if you don't do any of those, you are called a Vegan....
bukan ker allergic reactions can happen not only due to food? u must hv been exposed to something that u don't know kot..
get well soon...
omg!
i got that since form 3,and it never leave me alone till today!
(yeah, it comes and go without warning)
it is ugly!!and when it's really bad, i cant sleep at all- already used to it tho.
ko sedar plak ko tuh mmg banyak dosa kan??n plz dnt litter our cyber space wif this grosteque sight of urs.Dah btahun buat yoga pon ur hips still look like that?U d better stick wif sexcersise je la yer.Delusional bitch
hi ninie..
i know you feel.. and I've seen the worst of it cause my sister pun ada hives like you.. semua pun bengkak.. The first time she got it semua pun macam hairan cause tibe2 je ada benda tu. Our family doctor said its because she's allergic to something and gave her some meds. After taking it hives tu pun surut la.. so we tried to figure out what triggers the hives out sebab, she was eating what she normally ate. (and for info, back then, my sister just loveeeeeeeee chicken). after a while, kiteorang conclude she's allergic to chickens sebab every time dia makan ayam, the hives will have a field day. so dia pun stop la makan ayam, but then, after a while sea food pun dia tak leh nak makan.. tepaksa jadi vegetarian kejap.. tapi skrg ni, dia dah back to normal dah, dah boleh dah melantak ayam kesukaan dia and some sea foods. kekadang je hives tu datang balik menyerang so she always have ubat hives tu wherever she goes. alamak.. panjang lak I membebel.. hope you don't mind :) anyways, hope you'll feel better soon.. take care!
Owhh, my sisters have this on and off. To the point that she can't sleep at all from the itchiness. That is until she went to see the doctor, he prescribed some pills that helped her sleep and prevented her from scratching herself. Its been going on and off now, they do come back but rarely. I think she realised that its got to do with cats. Maybe yours could be cos your allergic to any animals?
In any way, I hope you get better soon. From the pics, it looks like you're hurting badly. *hugs* Ninie.
xx, manz :)
hye...i have the same allergy condition like u but not as bad to get the hives.... so after i took FISH OIL for quite sometimes, alhamdullilah my allergy kind a dissapear. before i cant even sit on my house carpet!! now i can! so why dont u try to take them ,it boost your immune system... insya allah, as did to me...
(advice from a pharmacist!me!)
in malaysia benadryl are mostly in syrup form..especially made for cough mixture..
here there are different group of antihistamine available..
not only NOT to eat whatever you allergic to....but don't forget to basuh your cadar (important!) and clean your room.
I have always been a silent reader, although I have contacted you personally about your yoga class. But I just have to share this with you.
I had the same condition a few years ago. I was under immense stress, known and unknown to me.
I went through the whole process of eliminating obvious cause of stress, and it worked for a bit, but then it came back again.
Until I realise that I also need to go and work on other more tricky subconscious stress. This is when a whole lot of self-realisation came and hit me in the face.
I think you will be able to do this well, given that you are a yoga instructor and pretty in tune with your body. You just have to work on to be in tune with your mind and emotion.
But what I really notice is, when I got married, almost all the stress signs is gone. A good reason to ask somebody to get married, I think so! ;)
take care of yourself alright :)
well my mom experienced the same thing and i totally agree with you-this is not due to stress.
it's really pity to see her suffer like that..she even went to the hospital to get injections on the days she couldnt stand the itchiness.
get well soon Ninie love!
I think, orang tua-tua panggil ni 'gegata'. Kalau kat kampung, ubat dia kena sembur dengan air pinang yang dah dijampi. Pastu, calit kapur kat satu badan.
oohh we are in the same boat...it always came during my chilhood / teen time. Usually in the evening, it will appear like a a thousand mosquito bites and becomes bigger and biger during nite time. the next morning it gone. Sometimes it happened 1 or 2 day in every 3 months or maybe a year time. There was one time it appeared almost every evening for about 1 month. goshh..it was itchy and hot!\
-naz
babe,
that's the nature to tell you to pause your hectic life and just be.
love,
weezered
Dear ninie,
Hives is very common nowadays, there are many who suffer from it,Im a pharmacist and 70% of the customers who purchase antihistamine suffer from hives :) i have had it since 95 and i am still taking antihistamine at nite before bedtime.However it has improve now as compared to many years ago.Try Zyrtec, thats the most popular and effective antihistamine for hives, I work in curve u can drop by :)
Oh no! I feel your pain.
I get hives, eczema and all classes of unholy skin breakouts when my stress levels boil over. Then comes the endless itch, the searing pain, the sleepless nights, the feeling of looking your worse 24-7-- you have my respect for being able to tahan so long!
On the bright side, people generally don't mess with angry hive sufferers, so I enjoy the wide berth I get on the subways and checkout lines.
I absolutely agree with your solutions. Sometimes, hives are more of a mental rather than a physical affliction, you just can't lie to your body. So I say a big yes to a healthy diet, chilling out and dumping toxic people out of your life (or if they just won't leave, spread the love and pass the hives to them la)
And if worse comes to the worse, I toss the benadryl out and take hydroxyzine HCL. OK la, it's a cop-out, but the oh-so-sweet relief that little pill grants is like jumping into the loo after holding it in for 2 hours in a traffic jam.
Good luck!
omg.kak ninie....
*speechless*
kena ggt nyamok lagi dh annoying...ini pulak rashes mcm tu sekali.
get well very soon,kak ninie.
hugs.
Hey...I have this allergy too...The hives will appear all over my arms and legs whenever I am in a cold temperature room...and that includes the cinema!
I am not taking any medication for this yet as I don't feel that it's that serious yet...somehow, the rashes/hives will cool down once I warm myself up afterwards.
hi ninie;
I pernah kena dulu walaupun sekejap je, memang seksa sgt.
Kalu ninie nak try, banyakkan minum air kelapa dan cuba try mandi air basuhan beras. Ni mum I buat masa I kena dulu la. Sebab nak sembuh buat je apa yg mak kasi.
Harap bersabar.
i've experienced this before, mine is due to allergy to medication/ supplement. better be careful anyway, check what actually is the main cause of yer allergy.
take care.
dek..try to mandi air suam yg campur dengan garam sket..pedih sket la..but it'll help..
take care..
Ninie, maybe ur pillow n mattres ade pijat x?hehe..x kn smpi mcm tu skali.
Tilam n bantal jemur kat panas ke.
*Petua orang2 kampung ni. Anyway hope u will get well soon.
D.Y.N.A.S = gegate tu mcm kena ulat bulu kan. Gatal 1 badan. Sapu badan dengan kapur. Kalo skrang letak calamine ( ye ke eja mcm ni)
sakit itu penghapus dosa indeed :)
get well soon babe!
ouch... that looks itchy
I used to get them when I was a teenager. The last serious attack the doc asked whether I was exposed to anything new like food or products like shampoo, soap, etc. I think it was due to the change in shampoo at that time. Hope u get better coz i know how irritatingly itchy it can be!
Renee
get well soon babe!
Dear Ninie,
I have enjoyed reading your blog and today was shocked to read about the hive breakout. It looks bad, and I am sure it feels worse. I have been through exactly what you've been experiencing so I may have some information which is helpful. It took me a long time to get my hives diagnosed properly and suffered for a long time from itchy and painful blistery looking skin. It first started on the back of my legs then progressed to my whole back, face and even chest.
My hives problem got sorted when I finally saw a specialist who conducted an allergy panel test on my skin. The test will show which allergens (pollen, mold, animal dander, dust etc.) cause this adverse reaction. Prior to this I also eliminated any product (hair, face, body) that contained a high level of colouring and fragrance. That helped a lot too. In my case, the problem was not caused by merely one thing (food or contact with one substance) but a combination of things. Something had changed in my body too(it was largely stress) and my whole immunity became compromised. So anything, even things that I was used to and eating on a regular basis could trigger a huge hive outbreak. It was a depressing period for me, but once I understood what was happening and what the triggers were I began to manage it better.
In the mean time if you need instant relief from the hives, a dose of anti-histamines (e.g. Zyrtec 10mg) helps and your doctor can prescribe it. Also using cold wet towels on the hive spots can bring down the swelling/itch and pain as well. But this is a short term measure, you must listen to your body and learn what is making your skin irritated now. It has been 5 years since I was first diagnosed properly and the hives come back once or twice a year, but never as bad as before. I also gave up smoking (2 pack a day habit) because I realised that smoking irritated my respiratory system, which in turns affect my skin (there is a correlation there). I hope you will be able to get to the bottom of this, I know exactly how depressing, inconvenient and painful it can be. I hope this information helps. Take care and be well soon!
Yup. Stress-related. Once your problem disappears, hives@urticaria@gegata will miraculously disappear too!!!
kasihannyaa. D:
semoga cepat sembuh.
p/s: "yaya" sangat tidak sopan.
ninie dahling,
i hope the person with the negative energy is NOT me. hahah...
i pity u hunny. first of all, change ur sheets, wash all ur clothes, jgn makan bende2 gatal, stay away from golek2 atas grass or anything else yg menggatalkan badan.
2ndly, wash urself regularly, don't scratch for godssakes!! from ur pics tuh pun i can detect u scratched urself. stop it will ya! lay off all moisturisers, and pakai bedak gatal banyak2.
i'll try to get u some cream or something from tokyo and US. Hopefully u will heal before i come back in april.
luv ya,
k elina
can i just write something not related to the hives? someone said something about your hips. n i siap tgk balik ur photos, but tade pun your hips? how? hehehe
but yeah, about the hives, i get it too sometimes. hmm.. someone's already suggested ur sheets, so check your surroundings, but have you also checked if it's what you're using on your body? lotion ke, sabun ke? i agree with the pharmacist commentor tu, antihistamines could help. but mine musnt be so terrible cause i can just pop a telfast n in 20 it'll die down (thank god!)
jgn garu kuat sangat, nanti got scar ok?
i love you cik ninie!
Hi Ninie,
I don't think you know (or remember) me but we met briefly when I was at Julie's (intimate)Raya open hse two yrs ago..you were there with Tom & Tom's parents...Anyway, just thought you know that I've had something similar before and Benadryl One a Day, Zirtek & the likes really works. I don't understand why they don't sell it in KL either but anyhow I always make a point to bring loads with me everytime we come home to KL for holiday. I'll be coming home for holiday next week 27th and am more than happy to get you these tablets or even the creams, I'm not sure how much they cost in KL but I think it's about £3.30 - £5.00 for a pack of 16's/32's. If you do then just let me know...Jojie x
Oh Kaka Ninie, get well soon darling!
I pun pernah kena mcm ni, back when I was in Standard 2.
tsk tsk tsk
Takpe takpe, dugaan. ( :
x x x
last year i pun penah kena mcm u jugak...nie cara yg mak i suruh i buat..i tak tau le about u but it works for me...
the cara is - u amik apa2 pisau, pisau potong sayur pun ok... then use the bahagian pisau yg tak tajam tu (not the holder but the blade itself) n lorekkan dkt tmpt yg tkena hives tu... i did it few times n the next day, i noticed semua hives tu hilang....
Hey Ninie,
I get this sometimes too. and it also usually starts at night. but mine is definitely milder vs. yours.
I do believe that it has something to do with our blood, and the toxic coming from stuff that we eat.
And because I don't usually eat junk food of any sort...and eat quite healthily...i didn't even know where to start in terms of eliminating.
my mom bought this book a long time ago..."Eat Right for you Type"...which basically is about only eating certain types of food suitable for your blood type.
after finding out that i am a B+ blood type, i started to reduce/eliminate CHICKEN (and poultry)and wheat products (e.g. bread). i used to think that rice was the devil...but realised that this was a better carb source compared to bread.
and immediately after eliminating these, and upping other meats (like beef and lamb)...my rashes/hives stopped! and on those occasions that i DO eat chicken or wheat products...i get the mild attacks again...
so maybe, it's worth a shot trying this out...cause it worked for me. if you want a brief read up about this...go to www.dadamo.com
Get well soon!
Dear Ninie,
Setelah lapar ada kenyang, setelah haus ada kepuasan, setelah berjaga ada tidur nyenyak dan setelah sakit ada kesembuhan. Setiap yang hilang pasti bertemu, dalam kesesatan akan datang petunjuk, dalam kesulitan ada kemudahan dan setiap kegelapan akan ada terang benderang. -petikan dari La Tahzan (Jangan Bersedih)
hope u get well soon!
Ninie..
Apply some Aloe Vera Jelly from Forever Living Products.. it really helps!!
Take care..
hi ninie, hope u feeling ok right now. bnyk2 bersabar. kekadang setiap penyakit yang ALLAH beri tu ada hikmahnya. i harap u makan ubat on time...
get well soon :)
hye ninie..
hope u doin well. i penah kna mcm ni jgk n mmg suffer sgt. but in my case i x blh panas @ berpeluh, nk2 plak klau msuk hutan, mandi sungai, main lumpur etc. lps tu siap la naik merah2 ni, mcm kna gigit nyamuk n klau terkena air lagi menjadi2 gatal n pedihnya.. mcm nk terbakar je badan. btl la kt2 mereka kt atas tu dia dtg n hilang bl dia suka, klau teruk sgt br i amek Zyrtec. tp susah jgk nk bersukan dulu, kna panas je naik bengkak. apa i bt tiap2 thn i g mandi laut, air masin tu elok utk kulit. skrg alhamdulillah.. byk2 bersabar ye.. nnt mst dia hilang.
The way you described those hives may be called 'kuligata' (in Brunei, I don't know what it's called in standard Malay). I had these before. It was painful and itchy. : ( I cannot go out at night & shower for as long as the hives are still there. I recommend you to do the same. I treated it with Calamine Lotion in the day and Turmeric (in the pure form, not the powdered one) at night. Alhamdulillah, it was gone after 3 nights or less.
how bout your beauty product? soaps, shower gel that you've just switched to lately? your detergent can also be an allergen. perfumes, spray nyamuk even. yes there are cases where idiopathic urticaria takes place but very rare. try going through all your stuff.
kat msia most widespread antihistamine is claritin. over the counter drug, easily available. tapi consult your physician dulu lah papehal. karang allergic dgn ubat pulak lagi payah.
maybe can sapu calamine lotion jugak. takpe laa going pink skali-skala. comel ape :)
get well soon, kak ninie. insya Allah :)
geramkan bila taktau penyebabnya? harap cepat tahu penyebab, cepatlah baik okay :)
K Ninie.. take care & jangan garu k. ~lucia
hye sis nine..ur hives still there??
hmm have u took any meds before this?may be u allergic to certain meds..check for steven johnson syndrome..
omg, memang sakit sgt if kena ni.
memang rasa burning n gatal sangat.
i selalu kena ni if i buat spring clean, banyak sangat habuk.
n everytime after balik club,sebab 'mabs'.memang akan keluar gegata.
mine merah2 some more ;p
hope u get well soon
Hi Ninie,
I penah kena jugak dulu
the whole body esp my back.sampai ada bentuk butterfly!
get well soon!
erm..just visiting to say hye..
well...pity 2 hear that...but my body is also got that thingy....
whole of my body...
really bad!huuuuuu...
hye kak nini
well,nih org panggil kelopak garam,nothern people call it by the name of kelopak garam...haha....minggu nih almost everyday i got it because,i mmg sakit asthma since im in standard one,dekat bibir ada,peha,lengan,under arm,semuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa la,gatal giler bab to the max,ini sebenarnya salah satu allergic yg biasa jd utk kita2 yang dahulu kala sakit asthma but now no more,i dont know y,but mmg mcm tu la,cuba ubat nama Zyrtec, mmg utk allergic yang rupa cenggini...
Ya i know vegitables are good for keep our health good. But for retreat yoga we have to care most.
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