Ninie by Joe Low
It has been six weeks and
that something that does not belong to my body
is still in me.
My daily struggle of motivating others to fight their own worst enemy
in between of keeping a Zen face while battling my own misery
is emotionally draining me.
I tried looking at it as food allergy in it's first few weeks
but when it still makes it's presence even when I go fully vegetable and fruits all day,
I know it is a way, if not the only way my body has been trying to tell me something.
Last Sunday night over carefully picked dinner to sideline potential allergens,
two of my fellow and beloved yoga teachers took one close look to diagnose my condition
and immediately distinguished in terror, "Girl, that is mainly caused by STRESS!"
Wow.
Even Wikipedia lists 'the cause is often difficult to identify', 'majority of patients have an unknown (idiopathic) cause' among others and the best my doctor could come out with was, telling me that 'my (anti)body is attacking protein.'
I used to think that the word 'stress' is overrated,
taking for granted that that one word is the major contributor to neckpain and stiffback
most people complain about and turn to yoga to.
When I first heard it from my yoga doctors, I went, C'MON!
I am a yoga instructor, how in the world can I be stressed
when I teach and make a living out of forcing people to exhale their stress out!
I preach to my yoga students that
our body is a walking billboard for our state of mind.
I have to eat my words.
Maybe I only make believe that I am fine
but evidently, what I am going through might have been too much
for my body to bear and for my organs to swallow.
S t r e s s.
A stressed yoga teacher
is pretty much like a dentist with bad teeth.
As much as I wish I could simply exhale it out,
meditate my way to propel it out of my system,
there are just some problems that can solely be solved
if say, RM200,000 falls from my sky, you get what I mean?
5 comments:
i hope you ll de-stress soon. (is there such a word?)
Yes I get what you mean. Come see my face and all this pimples caused by stress. I want RM250,000.00 to fall out of the sky. I wont be having this ridiculous pimples anymore.
i actually have a "stressormeter" somewhere on my body, it looks like eczema, and for yrs it was misdiagnosed as one, until another doctor told me what it was. it doesnt really go away, though it only itches when i'm stressed.
Are we talking about pimples here Miss Ninie?If so, I can totally relate.I never had any (major) breakout even during teen years but my face was full of it 3 years ago. All thanks to personal and work-related problems. After I dumped my ex-bf whom I suspect was the main cause of the amount of stress that I had (which my friend thought as a ridiculous reason to dump a guy!), my face alhamdullilah cleared!
Gosh, this reminds me of this book a friend mentioned to me once : "Fear and Yoga in New Jersey", about a stressed out yoga teacher. :p
Maybe you need a vacation. Dlm keadaan ekonomi merosot ni, Langkawi pun jadik la...
Post a Comment